"Yeah. A lot faster than I thought, when I first started pondering this mess."

He falls silent for a moment, which is notable when someone is as wound up as he apparently is. He feels like he should clarify something. After a few moment of struggling to get his head together, he tries.

"...That's what it felt like tonight. I mean." There is another few moments of pause. stringing sentences together coherently is way more difficult like this, and he wants to make sure he says this right. "...With the stuff I did, and uh...said."

"Things that just happen and feel natural. But then you think about it...I've been thinking about it."