"Sorry, I'm a bit all over the map: I seem to have as quick a mind as I did as Muraki," he says. "Muraki was... very often a ruthless man, but there were people whom he cared about, a woman he loved, a very ill woman, whose illness he would do anything to cure, up to and including taking the healing abilities of one being to give to her, just to make her whole. He... I wasn't patient enough to let science develop to find a proper treatment. I guess I'm a little impatient to be able to heal myself enough to forgive myself."