It's not that, I'm-- I just-- Shit if you asked me a week ago, I...
[Everything he wants to say dies on his lips, like it's not enough. He doesn't want Maxxie to come away from this thinking it's him when Terry thinks the world of him. It's just all Terry's shit getting in the way. He drags his hands through his hair, resisting the urge to start tearing at it because that is not a sensible thing to do right now, and sighs. Staring blankly at the wall because this is overwhelming and he kind of just wants to cry.].
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[Everything he wants to say dies on his lips, like it's not enough. He doesn't want Maxxie to come away from this thinking it's him when Terry thinks the world of him. It's just all Terry's shit getting in the way. He drags his hands through his hair, resisting the urge to start tearing at it because that is not a sensible thing to do right now, and sighs. Staring blankly at the wall because this is overwhelming and he kind of just wants to cry.].
I can't, Maxxie, I just-- I can't.