006 ┼ I'm Finding Me Out, I'm Having My Doubts, I'm Losing the Best of Me

[stylistic_disloyalty]

Who: Luci & YOU
What: You know what sucks? Everything about the last festival-- especially all the chaos and running. You know what's probably a good idea? Ignoring all of that and having a party. On a yacht.
When: May 20th
Where: The bay outside Vista City
Warnings: IT'S A CARNIVAL CRUISE...!

((Luci just got a strange pay bump and she's using it to regroup after the intense clusterfuck at the last festival-- she's still not sure exactly what happened there, but even though it's probably significant, she'd rather celebrate like one usually does after a lot of work. By renting a yacht for a night. Like people usually do.))





((It's a nice boat. Plenty of food, a couple of bartenders, fire pits, couches, swimsuits for those who need, and music of course. The party is, of course, invite only to keep the paparazzi and gatecrashers and people looking to turn this into a work-venture out, but Luci's given the bouncer clearance to let friends of guests and anybody who seems interesting in-- she knows Luci's type.))

((Try not to get too blitzed and fall overboard!))

Comments

[bass_instincts]

[He does wear armour rings and other kinds of rings. He can't punch hard enough to break a finger, but thanks to the rings they might both end up bleeding.

He rushes forward and throws another punch, this time to her face,] The fuck makes you so great?

[He really wants to ask her why people like her so much. Why so many people around her liked her. Why he likes her and admires her. Why doesn't he feel like there's anyone actually around him besides Roxas. Why he feels so alone despite all the fame he's been getting.... He'd trade the bit of time she has left for adoration, for love from someone. He doesn't realize that she might be just as lost as him.]

[stylistic_disloyalty]

[She takes that one too, and he splits her lip. It actually feels pretty good, in a sick kind of way. At least this makes some fucking sense.]

[Luci runs her tongue along the split and grins, her teeth full of blood.] Haven't you heard? I'm the devil. I tell people what they want to hear, and they love it. I lie, I cheat, I seduce, I promise, and none of it is real.

I'm not great-- [Luci makes a grab for the shoulders of Shin's clothes, to lift him up against a wall.] I'm loved, I'm hated, I'm a god and a monster.

[bass_instincts]

[Shin's as light as a leaf, She Luci should have no problem pinning him on the wall. His hand is bleeding from getting caught in the joints of the ring, and a few small drops of blood end up on Luci as he holds onto her wrists. He's not struggling, just glaring at her.]

So why are you trying to help me? Trying to tell me the shit I don't want to hear? Some fucking devil you are.

[stylistic_disloyalty]

Because I can't fucking stand it when people I've taken a shine to make dumbass choices. Just knocks me right out of my head and it just-- [Luci laughs, unhinged and bloody.] Really knocks me right out of my head.

I keep dreaming about dying in two years, you know that? [Of course he doesn't she hasn't told anybody but Terry.] You've got your whole life ahead of you, you're talented, and you want to fucking toss all of that. Time is a fucking gift, don't you get it?

[bass_instincts]

[Shin looks away, guilty. He knows what he's doing is stupid. He just doesn't know how to stop.]

I get it, Luci. I fucking get it.

I don't want to toss it, I just....

[He doesn't know exactly what's going on. He's actually just a kid. He doesn't know what he's doing, he doesn't understand what he's doing.]

[stylistic_disloyalty]

You don't know what the fuck is going on here and it shouldn't seem normal but when you try to figure out why it just vanishes.

[Luci holds him there for a moment, staring right at him whether he's going to look at her or not. She knows what she's talking about. She knows other people feel this way, she's heard it from them. Luci wouldn't be at all surprised if Shin felt the same way. It's like a disease that all of them have.]

[She lets him back down on his feet, slowly.] You're not the only one who feels lost here, Shin. Something is wrong here, it's not your fault.

[bass_instincts]

The only thing I have is my music. I fuck up everything else I touch. [Shin looks Luci in the eyes,] I'm scared because this place feels more right than anything else.

[He looks away,] and it feels like I'm the only one that's okay with this. Like there's something wrong with me.

[stylistic_disloyalty]

[If there's something wrong with him, there's something wrong with her. And while she knows there is something very, very wrong with what's happening here, she can lie.]

[Luci reaches to turn Shin's face to her, gently, with her fingers under his chin.]

The only time I feel like anything is worth anything is when I'm singing. It's why I never stop.

[bass_instincts]

[Shin lets her move his face, and looks her right in her eyes.]I know it sounds crazy, but I can remember another place and a different band and different people. I messed up everything there too.