interstellar5555 | i will never let you go

Who: Maxxie & Terry
What: you know what
When: Feb 5th
Where: Pride HQ/Cosmic Indulgence Penthouse
Warnings: too much cute/will edit if needed!

[The past few days have given Maxxie a lot of time to think and re-evaluate. He still has no idea what happened - but Terry has told him he's fine and Maxxie doesn't want to press the issue, deciding to trust him to say something if he's not fine. The best thing for Maxxie to do right now is continue on as normal, if that's what Terry wants.]

[But things aren't really normal. Going two days without any text back made Maxxie anxious in ways that he knows are more intense than how one would feel about a casual lay not getting back to you. He's spent a lot of time biting his lip, staring at his phone, thinking that maybe Terry doesn't actually like him that much. When the texts finally did arrive, Maxxie was so relieved that he almost burst into song right there. That's what it took for Maxxie to figure out his feelings.]

[He likes Terry. Like likes him. And Maxxie is a man of action.]

[Some time on the 5th, after a regularly scheduled Flashstep practice session, when Maxxie knows he's going to have some time to himself, he shoots Terry a text:]

hey, u home?

[Then, cryptically, less than a minute later, regardless of whether Terry has replied to the affirmative:]

need 2 talk. be up in a few! :)

[And so that's what precedes his arrival at the Cosmic Indulgence penthouse, knocking on the door and then trying not to bounce on the balls of his feet as he waits for someone to answer.]

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You can't know that.

[But when he looks up at Maxxie, it's like he's desperately looking for some confirmation that he does know that. He chews his lip, deeply unsure of what to do. He wants this, he does, but he doesn't want to heap all his shit on Maxxie's life.]

You're great, and being around you is always amazing, and I can be myself with you and I don't want to lose that, but I just don't want to be the thing that messes up your life.

[His voice starts shaking a little partway through all that, and he ends up rushing through it.]

[When Terry looks at him, Maxxie can tell that this concern is real, that he's not just making it up as some excuse to get out of this conversation. Something really bad happened to him, but Maxxie's so confident that this won't be bad that he knows he has to push through it.]

You're not going to be. And if there's nothing else holding you back from this, then... it's just not fair if you don't give it a chance.

[He gives Terry a soft smile, his eyes still worried.]

I'm really happy when I'm with you. I just think, you know, we have to give it a try.

[Terry goes quiet for a minute, thinking this through. Maybe Maxxie's right and they really can handle these things together. He doesn't know that that's right, but Maxxie's so confident that it's hard not to internalise some of that, and Terry nods slowly. Why can't they make it work? Of course they can.]

[He gives a slightly wet laugh, wringing his hands awkwardly.] Bet you didn't think I was this messed up when we met.

[Maxxie sighs, still smiling but losing some of the tension in his face.]

You're not as messed up as you think you are.

[He reaches over, taking one of Terry's hands in his own, with a gentle but reassuring grip.]

So?

[He's not going to operate on just a nod here.]

Yeah. [He nods again and looks down at their hands, smiling a little hesitantly as he brushes a thumb over Maxxie's knuckles.] We both want this, so... Yeah, let's--- Yeah.

[Maxxie grins like he can't contain it, leaning forward to rest his forehead against Terry's affectionately before he pulls back. He wants to kiss him, but he bites his lip instead.]

Are you sure? You're not just saying that because I'm being pushy are you? I'm not being pushy, right?

[How does asking someone to be your boyfriend even work.]

A little pushy.

[Terry raises his free hand to indicate a tiny amount with his thumb and forefinger, but the way his expression has already brightened about 1000 lumens should probably speak a lot for how he feels about this all.]

I'm still worried, but I want... [oh no say something less cheesy no its happening fuck.] You.

[Maxxie laughs because he's just so happy, and then he leans in to kiss Terry. His boyfriend. He gets to say that now. In moderation. God they are not having the "going public" talk immediately he only just got Terry to say yes.]

I want you too, if that wasn't obvious.

[Terry looks down bashfully, Totally Not a bit pink in the cheeks or anything, but he's also a bit worried. Why not just immediately test the boundaries of this thing that's fine right.]

[(It's not even really a boundary, Terry just needs to c h i l l.)]

Hey, so. If we're a couple now. [God that feels weird to say. But he likes it.] Can I ask you for something?

[He's actually scared, god bless.]

[Maxxie is 100% perky again. That was a trial, getting to this point, but Terry says the word "couple" and it fills him with such happiness that he'll listen to just about anything Terry has to say right now, even if it's a plot to murder someone.]

[~~It's not, right.~~]

Yeah, sure. Anything.

Can you just. Lie down with me for a while?

[More specifically he wants to be held, because this is nice but everything else is still awful, but he's not quite ready to ask for that in so many words.]

[Maxxie glances behind them, at Terry's bed. He's always laid down here with a certain expectation... It's actually kind of nice that he's just lying down this time.]

'Course I will.

[He lets go of Terry's hand so he can tug at the covers, crawling underneath them and then tugging at Terry to come with him.]

[Terry crawls over next to him and immediately curls up at Maxxie's side. He'd normally be a lot more hesitant, but he's just so raw emotionally, he can't find it in himself to care about much other than how nice this is gonna be.]

Thanks.

We can do this whenever you want.

[He wraps his arm around Terry's shoulders and rests his cheek on Terry's head. It feels new and exciting but so comfortable. He's a little nervous and he's worried that Terry can hear his heart beating hard and fast, but that doesn't council out the desire he has to pull Terry close.]

[Terry sighs happily and rests his head on Maxxie's shoulder. This is great. He puts an arm around Maxxie's middle and pulls himself closer, turning his head up to kiss Maxxie once he's comfortable and settled here.]

Whenever I want? [Hm.] I'm sure this would make a great addition to your next show.

[Maxxie laughs softly, closing his eyes. After all that excitement he's ready to take a nap.]

Well, you can deal with Manny on that front.

I'm sure he'll understand. [YAWN.] I mean, what if I have-- I dunno, a bad dream? And I need you to come hold me with these big, strong arms.

[He says it like it's a joke, but seriously. Good arms. A+ work.]

[Well, that makes Maxxie laugh out loud.]

All those curls finally paid off.

[Terry snorts and puts his head back where it was on Maxxie's shoulder.]

Congratulations.

[Maxxie kisses Terry's head and sighs happily. This is lovely and he's ready to take a nap.]

[Yeah, Terry's there too. It only takes a little bit of quiet for him to start drifting off. He's been so weighed down with everything lately and he's exhausted, but this is nice. He may even get an hour or two of peaceful sleep.]

[Maxxie manages to fall asleep too, although he waits for Terry's breath to even out until he lets himself drift off. And once he's asleep he stays asleep, keeping his arms snug around Terry and even cuddling up a little closer.]

i will never let you go

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