I'll Show You My Strength Now

[bass_instincts]

Who: Shin and you!
What: Practice, various
When: April 17-23
Where: Various
Warnings: Sex, drugs, rock n' roll (and prostitution)

1.) OTA

Coping mechanisms are alcohol, weed, and coke, right? He's wondering if he's crazy, but he knows all too well that everything makes too much sense to be lies. It explains so much about why he loves music so much, and why he felt compelled to sell his skin, but it left him with the question, is it worth going home?

Currently Shin's on the down-swing of a coke rush, contemplating life and the universe over a Long Island iced tea. His foot is tapping rhythmically to the beat, though his expression doesn't follow along with the same enthusiasm.

2.) For Roxas

Shin normally is smooth and controlled. He rarely looks angry, and since his arrival he had yet to actually once act on his anger. Today's practice seems to be getting to him though. He hadn't been close with the other band members, but the temporary replacements seemed to be getting more and more under his skin. His jaw sets harder with each mistake the fill-ins make. Even Roxas's mistakes seem to be getting to him, and his own mistakes even moreso. The first few (hundred?) plays through, Shin was playing as close to perfect as a human being could get with the amount of practice they had already put in, but each jarring note off of the tune seems to be messing with his game more and more.

Finally, the bassist plays another measure in the wrong key and off beat and Shin snaps like a guitar string. He lifts the bass violently over the bassist's head to get the strap off of him and swings it back around to smash into the floor. A piece of the guitar flies out, directly into Roxas's main drum, earning a deeper scowl and a silent curse. He didn't want to get Roxas involved, but he'd fucked that up, apparently. He tries to let it not ruffle him too much as he looks the bassist dead in the eye before announcing, "Sounds much better now."

He pulls off his guitar and throws it at one of the stereos, making them collide with a horrific sound.

He's apparently done for the day as he storms out the studio. At the very least it's going to take a few minutes to replace the three instruments he just wrecked.

3.) Wildcard jynxed

Comments

[inversekeyblade]

Sure, innocent. We'll go with that. It hurts his ego, but he can get used to it. "Okay, both are great, but if I had to pick, the latter is even better for whatever reason.. Happy?"

As much as he may like the explanation, it's far too revealing. So, he's looking forward way too much towards what he'll be asking. Which will definitely come next.

[bass_instincts]

"Okay, okay," At least Shin didn't call Roxas 'innocent' out-loud. He takes a drink and stifles a burp. "Your turn."

He's forgotten a step, but he's not all too worried about that, even though he believes Roxas.

[inversekeyblade]

That's a good thing.. because Roxas definitely is forgetting these steps, especially as the time goes on. It isn't so much as finding out about his sexual exploits as it is trying to figure out what's going on with Shin: whether it helps or hurts, he'll find out later.

But he'll take that chance.

Shaking what has happened before, because, whatever, who cares about that, he proceeds with the next part of the game. "How about this.. so, is there an event that has happened, any, in your past that has contributed to how you are now? One single, defining thing that has happened which makes you who you are, doing what you are doing?"

The biggest reason he asks that is because he knows that is if he were to be asked the same question, he would have a simple answer. As to whether the other person would believe him or not, that's up to them.

[bass_instincts]

"I was told by my father that he hates me and wishes I was died." Shin looks into his glass, expecting Roxas to tell him that he believes him. He'll be wrong, but it sounds convincing.

[inversekeyblade]

Something like that sounds super shitty. Enough so that it makes Roxas wonder, why would Shin tell him this kind of thing now, of all times?

He wouldn't. He hasn't. And he hasn't.

"That's pretty awful.. but, I'm going to bet it's not true."

[bass_instincts]

Shin drinks. "He didn't talk to me often enough to say that," he says with a dark laugh. He finishes off his drink and orders another.

"What's your first memory? Real memory."

[inversekeyblade]

As shitty as that is, Roxas shouldn't drink. It's not in his place. Much as he wants to, for this and other reasons, it wouldn' be appropriate.

Lord knows opportunities will present themselves later though..

With that in mind, with that thing Shin suggests, he can say just as well, "Really? Obviously, being taught my first words. What else is there, even? Hey. What do you got for me?"

[bass_instincts]

"You're lying. I don't know anyone that remembers their first words," he says, pointing to Roxas.

[inversekeyblade]

Big smile. Sort of. "I do." He isn't that old, technically.

"My name. I repeated it when it was told to me." Real exciting.

[bass_instincts]

"Really?" he asks as he takes a drink. "I get the feeling there's some kind of story there."

[inversekeyblade]

Big understatement there. "Yeah. Definitely.. not-so-great story, though."

He's hoping he gets this next one wrong thinking about it, actually. "Hmm.. one more round, and we should wrap this up. What do ya say?"

[bass_instincts]

"Hey, the stories I've told haven't been that great. You gotta tell me later," he slurs. "Fine, one more round."

[inversekeyblade]

That's okay, because it isn't something factoring into his wanting to wrap this up. "Alright.. I'll do it next. And make it a good one." Sip, because, why not.

"What kind of end result do you see doing what you're doing has in store for you?" Not just the fun, end of the week kind of thing, but legitimately the future. As much of it as they have to look forward to here, anyway.

[bass_instincts]

Shin is quiet, thinking. "I'll retire rich some day."

He obviously doesn't want to be answering this. He wants to dart. He downs his glass and gets another already.

[inversekeyblade]

Damn. That's an easy way to take, and Roxas was hoping to go along for himself. It's easy to fall into that, for himself at the least, but he's not going down that path. Sorry, white rabbit, not falling for it this time.

"Nah.. that's not it. That can't be it. It never is."

[bass_instincts]

Shin throws back a concerning portion of his new glass, "I don't think about the future."

He sounds like he doesn't want to talk any more about it.

[inversekeyblade]

Looks like there are some things that the both of them aren't easy to talk about at a moments notice. Maybe they could compromise on this, maybe later, but not right now. Not right now, anyway.

"Alright.. for yours, the last of it, what do you got?"

[bass_instincts]

"If you were to die today, what would be your biggest regrets?" His words are slurring and he looks unsteady now, but not dangerously so. At least not seriously dangerously so, but Roxas might need to metaphorically hold his hair back before they get home at this rate.

[inversekeyblade]

That is definitely one hell of a loaded question. Roxas is glad for it, though, because it makes him think. Even in this state, he can explore how he feels about this particular scenario. "Oh, that's easy. Leaving the people behind I care about, the ones I left before, with nothing."

They weren't techincally people, but who the hell is counting?

[bass_instincts]

Shin smiles, "I believe you on that one."

[inversekeyblade]

As happy as he is that someone believes him on this, he's just as easily lamenting the fact that he has to take another drink.

This is easily going to put him over the edge.

Until that happens, up until the second, he's going to try his best to keep himself as grounded as possible. "Well.. you're right. Yup. You're right there. I guess that's it. Game over. We should.. cash out and maybe, lay up against something for a while." And definitely NOT DRIVE ANYWHERE, NO.

[bass_instincts]

Shin waves the bartender over and asks to cash out. He leaves a tip that might be a bit too big and stands, "I'm gonna use the bathroom first."

[inversekeyblade]

How generous of Shin to leave such a generous tip. It skews his perspective on his friend here into a more favorable category than before, even.

Until he mentions the bathroom. It could be something as simple as just using the bathroom. Or, thinking back to earlier..

"I gotta go too. Too much drinking." He can't nor will he be able to stop Shin from doing whatever he's going to do, but at least he'll make sure something ridiculous doesn't happen during.

[bass_instincts]

Shin looks a little disappointed but doesn't say anything. He goes to the sinks first, ignoring the sounds of sex he can hear in one of the stalls, Shin goes to the sinks, hoping that Roxas would go to the urinals and turn around while he cuts another line for himself.

[inversekeyblade]

The fact that there's the sound of two people having sex in the bathroom, shamelessly at that, is enough to draw Roxas's attention away from whatever else is going on. He still kind of has to go, which he takes to the urinal and deals with, but he can't help but fixate on what's going on in the stall so close to them.

Don't blame him. He's young, these things are exceptionally distracting for him. Hormones. Some other excuse.

When he's finished it isn't a surprise what Shin has done. A shame, maybe, but he knows he can't do anything to stop it. As long as things don't get crazy.. like it might be getting given the sounds coming from that stall.

Are they freaking filming in there?

Figuring that no one and nothing is listening to him other than Shin, "Does this sort of thing happen often in here?"