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interstellar55552016-04-26 07:54 am
yellowcopycat) wrote in interstellar55552016-04-26 07:54 am
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I hear the angels talking talking talking now I'm a dead man walking walking walking
Who: Ryouta Kise and you! Also Xanxus.
What: Ryouta can't keep his head in the sand anymore
When: After "Ankh" posts to his twitter account
Where: Virgo HQ, Vista City Park, the beach (Xanxus only)
Warnings: Heaving emotional turmoil, a breakdown, and in the Xanxus locked thread; Xanxus and all the issues to go with him.
Ryouta hates his home.
He hates it so much. He wants to move. He just doesn’t know how.
Aoba’s gone, Kaworu’s gone, Tsuna’s gone, Nia’s gone. It’s just him, Momo, and Ankh.
Except Ankh isn’t Ankh. He knows it isn’t. He’s too happy, doesn’t twitch as much. Just everything is off. And ever since he learned to copy things by just watching the amount of visual information he’s processing has increased so he knows Ankh has been replaced. He can’t prove it, but he knows.
So he spends all of his free time outside of the suite. In they gym, in the cafe, anywhere but his suite, where he only goes back to sleep at night. He wonders what will happen. Last time it was down to the three of them Nia and Tsuna came, but… He just doesn’t know what’s going to happen to Surviving Friday.
Which means the second album he’s been working on is going to be trashed. And he hates that. He’s been planing on releasing an EP, like Genos and Roy have, he can salvage some of his Generation of Miracles concepts for his EP. He’s has “Dead Man Walking” recorded (Xanxus had helped a lot with that). “Irresistible” has Ankh singing, but he can replace that with his own voice. He has demos of other songs made along. It’s just a matter of piecing it together now.
If he can make his brain work that is.
He’s so scared. Flowers over Bones is gone, which means Luce is gone. And Luce was his go to person for comfort, and the Doctor was pretty cool too. And Ivan. And Sora’s gone. That hurts a lot too. Sora was his best friend. Rarity’s gone too. He didn’t have much interaction with her, but he had wanted to get to know her better.
Why is everyone disappearing? He knew something was weird, with all the weird memories and stuff, but he ignored it, hoping everything would turn out okay.
Obviously, that didn’t happen. He had his head in the sand for too long and now he doesn’t know anything. He’s scared, hurt, and confused that it takes all his well to not cry in the middle of the hall.
Prombts Below
What: Ryouta can't keep his head in the sand anymore
When: After "Ankh" posts to his twitter account
Where: Virgo HQ, Vista City Park, the beach (Xanxus only)
Warnings: Heaving emotional turmoil, a breakdown, and in the Xanxus locked thread; Xanxus and all the issues to go with him.
Ryouta hates his home.
He hates it so much. He wants to move. He just doesn’t know how.
Aoba’s gone, Kaworu’s gone, Tsuna’s gone, Nia’s gone. It’s just him, Momo, and Ankh.
Except Ankh isn’t Ankh. He knows it isn’t. He’s too happy, doesn’t twitch as much. Just everything is off. And ever since he learned to copy things by just watching the amount of visual information he’s processing has increased so he knows Ankh has been replaced. He can’t prove it, but he knows.
So he spends all of his free time outside of the suite. In they gym, in the cafe, anywhere but his suite, where he only goes back to sleep at night. He wonders what will happen. Last time it was down to the three of them Nia and Tsuna came, but… He just doesn’t know what’s going to happen to Surviving Friday.
Which means the second album he’s been working on is going to be trashed. And he hates that. He’s been planing on releasing an EP, like Genos and Roy have, he can salvage some of his Generation of Miracles concepts for his EP. He’s has “Dead Man Walking” recorded (Xanxus had helped a lot with that). “Irresistible” has Ankh singing, but he can replace that with his own voice. He has demos of other songs made along. It’s just a matter of piecing it together now.
If he can make his brain work that is.
He’s so scared. Flowers over Bones is gone, which means Luce is gone. And Luce was his go to person for comfort, and the Doctor was pretty cool too. And Ivan. And Sora’s gone. That hurts a lot too. Sora was his best friend. Rarity’s gone too. He didn’t have much interaction with her, but he had wanted to get to know her better.
Why is everyone disappearing? He knew something was weird, with all the weird memories and stuff, but he ignored it, hoping everything would turn out okay.
Obviously, that didn’t happen. He had his head in the sand for too long and now he doesn’t know anything. He’s scared, hurt, and confused that it takes all his well to not cry in the middle of the hall.
Prombts Below
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This isn't going how he thought it would be going. Ryouta's not sure if he should let go of Xanxus' hand or hold on tighter, so he just doesn't move. "I mean, I don't care if you sleep with others, that's why I'm suggesting an open relationship."
He knows he should shut up. But Ryouta's never been a slave to good judgement. And he knows that things are worth standing his ground. Nothing worth anything at all should be fought for.
He just doesn't know what to say.
"I... just really like you Xan. I think I might even be in love with you."
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He sort of growls a little and his hand tightens. He's a lot stronger than he used to be. Something's happened recently. Those weird guys had given him back some of his strength. "Don't. Don't say that. We're just fucking. Even if we were boyfriends or whatever, I'm not someone you should love."
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"I just..." he's beginning to tear up. Hurt from the rejection, hurting from the pain in his hand. "But you..."
Xanxus had always been so sweet to him. Had taken him out for that date to the basketball game, he had held his hand while he got his tattoo.
"You've... been so nice to me," he knows he's rambling now, but he doesn't know what else to do.
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"I've been nice to you because you're a good lay. Because I like having you in my bed. But more than that..." He had to be honest here with Ryouta. For both their own good. "More than that and I really will start hurting you. I won't be able to hold my temper in check and if we're together, you'll be my closest target. Is that what you want? Do you really want to date someone that will probably end up killing you some day."
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He believes that Xanxus could, and would, hurt him, if only because he's hurting him now.