I hear the angels talking talking talking now I'm a dead man walking walking walking

[yellowcopycat]

Who: Ryouta Kise and you! Also Xanxus.
What: Ryouta can't keep his head in the sand anymore
When: After "Ankh" posts to his twitter account
Where: Virgo HQ, Vista City Park, the beach (Xanxus only)
Warnings: Heaving emotional turmoil, a breakdown, and in the Xanxus locked thread; Xanxus and all the issues to go with him.

Ryouta hates his home.

He hates it so much. He wants to move. He just doesn’t know how.

Aoba’s gone, Kaworu’s gone, Tsuna’s gone, Nia’s gone. It’s just him, Momo, and Ankh.

Except Ankh isn’t Ankh. He knows it isn’t. He’s too happy, doesn’t twitch as much. Just everything is off. And ever since he learned to copy things by just watching the amount of visual information he’s processing has increased so he knows Ankh has been replaced. He can’t prove it, but he knows.

So he spends all of his free time outside of the suite. In they gym, in the cafe, anywhere but his suite, where he only goes back to sleep at night. He wonders what will happen. Last time it was down to the three of them Nia and Tsuna came, but… He just doesn’t know what’s going to happen to Surviving Friday.

Which means the second album he’s been working on is going to be trashed. And he hates that. He’s been planing on releasing an EP, like Genos and Roy have, he can salvage some of his Generation of Miracles concepts for his EP. He’s has “Dead Man Walking” recorded (Xanxus had helped a lot with that). “Irresistible” has Ankh singing, but he can replace that with his own voice. He has demos of other songs made along. It’s just a matter of piecing it together now.

If he can make his brain work that is.

He’s so scared. Flowers over Bones is gone, which means Luce is gone. And Luce was his go to person for comfort, and the Doctor was pretty cool too. And Ivan. And Sora’s gone. That hurts a lot too. Sora was his best friend. Rarity’s gone too. He didn’t have much interaction with her, but he had wanted to get to know her better.

Why is everyone disappearing? He knew something was weird, with all the weird memories and stuff, but he ignored it, hoping everything would turn out okay.

Obviously, that didn’t happen. He had his head in the sand for too long and now he doesn’t know anything. He’s scared, hurt, and confused that it takes all his well to not cry in the middle of the hall.



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I - Virgo HQ Gym - OTA Virgo

[yellowcopycat]

He’s in the gym when he finally breaks down. He shoots a basket, and misses because he’s just so distracted.

He’s mad that he missed the basket. Mad that’s he doesn’t know anything. Mad, scared, lonely, hurt, confused. All those emotions bubble up and then, there’s a tear trickling down his cheek. His breath hitches and he’s just so fucking done holding it in. He wraps his arms around his chest and lets himself sob sinking to his knees and pressing his head to the floor.

II - Vista City Park near the Basketball Courts - OTA

[yellowcopycat]

He’s watching a game as he eats a sandwich. It’s some teenagers, younger then him, middle school students probably. They’re laughing and having fun and Ryouta is jealous. He misses playing basketball with people regularly. He’s just so busy with music that most times he just played with them once and then never again.

He slumps against the bench he’s on.

He feels so tired. He feels better now that he had had the break down. It wasn’t healthy keeping all that bottled up.

But even though it’s out of his system he doesn’t know what to do.

[fantasyseal]

It's been a rough time with everything happening at once. Between the Tour and everything else...but there is still time to head outside and be social. There are others who have it worse and Reimu knows it. SO when she sees Ryouta sitting there, She joins him, sitting quietly for a moment. If anything it takes a moment to even think about what to say as she still didn't know many others outside of her band.

"...It's been a long month I take it?"

[yellowcopycat]

"Yeah..." Ryouta took a drink from his water bottle. "Feels like everything fell apart."

He looks over at Reimu, offering a little smile. "How are you doing?" She lost a band mate too, hadn't she?

[invisiballman]

You know what's great when you're feeling down? An adorable dog. Fixes everything, right?

Well.... regardless, there is in fact a dog. They'd been out for a walk in the park and Nigou had gotten a little ahead of Kuroko and was pleased to see a familiar face. He hops onto the bench next to Kise like he owns the place and his tail gives a cautious little wag. Oh... but Kise looks so sad. Licking his hand will probably help. That always helps. His owner will be along in a minute.

[yellowcopycat]

"You're Kai's aren't you?" Ryouta lifted his hand and rubbed at the dog's ears. He remembered this dog from Kai's work...

But he remembers meeting this dog before. It had peed in Midorimacchi's rickshaw. It had eyes as blue as Kai's...

"Where's your human?" He looked around, trying to see if he could find Kai before Kai snuck up on him.

[invisiballman]

Success! The dog leans into the touch and his tail wags happily. As if in answer to the question, Nigou turns his head yips in the direction he came from. Sure enough, his owner comes walking around a bend in the path, scanning the area for his pet.

Kuroko's steps pause for just a moment when he sees Kise. They haven't spoken since the Fairy Trial reception, and he's sure that this is going to be awkward. Helpfully, his mind supplies the memory of Kise's lips on his. In case he forgot. But this is no time time to worry about things like that. Eventually he'll have told himself that enough times for it to become true.

So he walks over to the bench and picks up his dog.

"It's been a while. I'm sorry if he was bothering you."

[yellowcopycat]

"Hey Kaicchi," Ryouta said brightly. Well, as brightly as he can, considering, but the dog and seeing Kai does make him feel better.

"Nigou was just saying hi," he began and then trailed off. How had he known the dog was called that? He hadn't looked at the collar. "I like dogs. Some have even compared me to be big golden lab puppy before."

He looks up at Kai. He also remembers the kiss, it was a nice kiss. They hadn't really talked about it had they? Would they need to? "How's your day going?"

[invisiballman]

So Kise remembered Nigou. Interesting. Kuroko makes a show of tilting his head thoughtfully and considering the comparison carefully.

"A golden labrador... Yes, I can definitely see the resemblance."

He joins Kise on the bench, keeping the dog on his lap.

"So far I can't complain. We usually come to the park when I have a day off."

Both to give Nigou a chance to run around and in the hopes of maybe joining a pickup game. Something in Kise's tone, or maybe it's the look in his eyes, or maybe he's just known him too long... Whatever it is, something tells Kuroko that things are not as well on his end.

"Are you alright? You seem... troubled."

Re: II - Vista City Park near the Basketball Courts - OTA

[possessedbygreeed]

Shingo is seeing the world with new eyes. He's always seen this stuff, yet why does some of it seem so new? It was confusing, and mildly aggravating. He frowned a bit as he lazily strolled through the park. He's watching the people engaging in the activities, not so much those just sitting quietly to the side. He has a hat stuffed on over his hair, and sunglasses on. They're red, a little flashy. He was also wearing a hoodie, even if it was decidedly too warm for most people.

He has his left arm folded across his chest, and his right, covered in a glove, resting against his cheek. Nia was gone, shouldn't he be more concerned about that? He knows they spent a lot of time playing together, and yet... And then there was the matter of Kise. He was acting weird. He couldn't quite put his finger on why, though.

He had hoped some outside air would help clear things up. But walking around like this only gave him more questions. "Tche." Okay, he needed some ice cream. He scanned around the vicinity for a cart and headed toward it, inadvertently in Kise's direction.

[yellowcopycat]

Ryouta was taking another bite of his sandwich when he saw "Ankh" and he shrunk in on himself. Well, as much as a six-three teenager could.

He looked away from him, hoping he wouldn't be noticed. Which was like wishing it wouldn't rain when it was already raining. Kise was... Noticeable. How many people looked as good as him? Very few. People liked pretty things.

He hunkered down and took a giant bite of his sandwich.

[possessedbygreeed]

He went and bought his ice cream and found someplace to sit. Unfortunately, that was right next to Kise. He watched the bodyguards attempt to look inconspicuous out of the corner of his eye on his right, but some women seated together on a bench a few feet away were already whispering and pointing. What a pain.

So he skimmed through his phone while he ate his ice cream, perched on the back of the bench, with his feet on the seat, without even asking if the seat was taken.

[yellowcopycat]

With a sigh Ryouta took another huge, and noisy bite of his sandwich. "So," he said after swallowing (he wasn't rude, he made sure to chew with his mouth shut and didn't talk while chewing).

"How's the hand? Still twitchy?"

He knew it wasn't.

[possessedbygreeed]

He glanced over when he realized he was the one being spoken to. Honestly, it wasn't all that surprising to see who it was. He huffed and went back to his ice cream. "What business is it of yours?"

Ankh had lately been exclusively using his left hand, not in a way that meant the right was useless, but just as a matter of habit. No, it wasn't twitchy, but it did itch like hell. Why did these tattoos feel recent when he'd had them for ages? But he decided something like that didn't matter.

III - The Beach Near Virgo Headquarters - Xanxus (CW: Xanxus, violence, and abuse)

[yellowcopycat]

He had been putting this off for a while. But he figured it was time. He and Xanxus had been together for a while now, just not officially. And that’s okay, everyone has different paces, but the way Xanxus keeps talking to him… he makes Ryouta feel special. He knows he’s not the only person Xanxus is sleeping with, just like Xanxus isn’t the only person he’s slept with, though that number is a lot lower.

So he’s decided it’s time to take their relationship and move forward with it. Be boyfriends, lovers, partners, or whatever the best term is.

It’s been four months since he told Sora and Luce he was polyamorous. He’s more then okay with Xanxus being with others. But he wants to make it official with Xan. He doesn’t care if Xanxus continues see others, or even if Xanxus makes them official too, he just wants acknowledgment that there is something wonderful between them, and respect that he might do the same with others.

So he had called Xanxus, asked him to meet him here, said he wanted to spend sometime with him before the world tour.

[variaboss]

Xanxus hadn't know what the calls was actually for. He has assumptions of course. It might be a bit of a booty call and he's all for that. As much as he's sleeping with a laundry list of people, he also enjoys Ryouta still. Despite what the tabloids said, he wasn't going to get bored of such a great lay.

He waits on the beach, standing and looking out towards the ocean. He's frowning. He's got memories of beaches just like this, only there was a lot more screaming and burning.

He doesn't turn when he hears steps on the sand. "The sea is calm today. It's almost perfect for a swim."

[yellowcopycat]

"I didn't think to bring a swim suit," Ryouta said. "Not that could really stop us."

He walked to stand beside the older man, and smiled at him. "Hey, thanks for coming." He looked out at the sea and made a content sound. This was good. He could do this.

He was nervous, of course he was, anyone would be.

"I... I've been thinking a lot lately, about the future, about our works." His smile becomes a bit shy. "About us. Only good things, and that's because everything's been good."

[variaboss]

He laughs a little at the comment. That's indeed true. They've had sex in a basketball stadium bathroom a little skinny dipping is nothing. He is about to reach out and loop an arm over Ryouta when the younger man continues.

His thoughtful look turns a little darker as the blond talks. It turns darker because he's been doing some thinking to, but it's not about anything good. And not at all about Ryouta, other than a stronger urge to be more and more possessive.

"Of course everything's been good. I take care of what's mine."

[yellowcopycat]

"Yeah, I know," Ryouta said, smiling softly. "And so, I was thinking that maybe..."

He reached out and took Xanxus' hand in his. "That maybe we could be official?"

He turned his head to look at Xanxus. "Like, be open still, because I know you like a lot of people, and I'm like that too, poly, you know."

He was babbling, he knows, but he can't help it. He's nervous and this is a big step.

[variaboss]

Xanxus just stares at the blond. Not just stares, it's almost like a hard glare. His eyes flick down to the hand holding his. There's a urge to shove Ryouta away. To call him stupid and tell him that he shouldn't think. Pretty boys weren't supposed to do anything but be pretty and available. There was also a little surge of possession. He didn't want to share. What was his was his. Even if he slept around, he wanted to keep Ryouta all to himself. He knows it's not fair and that such thoughts were dangerous.

"Official? Like fucking dating? You've got to be joking. Second we say we're dating all sorts of shit will happen." Like he's certain that the rest of his regular partners would quit sleeping with him because they wouldn't want to be with some cheater. "We're fine like this. We don't have to put a goddamn label on it."

IV - Jamie, after Xanxus

[yellowcopycat]

Ryouta just got away from Xanxus, and he's a wreck. He puts his hand to his heart because it feels like it's been torn out. And he can feel the bruise blooming on his face from where Xanxus punched him. He was going to have a black eye.

Everything is going wrong. He thought Xanxus was the one good thing going right.

And he's been so wrong.

He pulls out his phone and stares at it. Normally he'd talk to Ankh, and Luce would be his second choice. But Ankh and Luce aren't here anymore. And Sora's gone too...

There's no one else he trusts as much. He sends Jamie a text;

I need you. Can you come to the park?

[mildwildchild]

Jamie's cooling down after a workout at Pride's gym facility when he gets Ryouta's text. A couple of weeks ago he might have assumed the guy was flirting or drunk or possibly both, would have had some kind of pithy retort for him, but now he's not so sure. Frowning, he taps out a reply.

what's up

which park

[yellowcopycat]

Vista City Park. The swings.

Just... Things went bad with Xanxus.

He sends the text and parks himself on one of the chain link swings. A tear rolls down his cheek and he sniffles pathetically.

[mildwildchild]

Things going bad with Xanxus can't mean anything good. Now Jamie's worried.

shit ill be there asap

r u ok do i need to call an ambulance or smthg

[yellowcopycat]

I'm okay. Just a little beat up.